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周一去海外华文书市。开斋节第一天，应公共假期，人潮拥挤。 因任务在身，受人所托购买重量级的laminator，所以我们买了第一轮，放了东西，午饭后再战书市。 人多，排队队伍也长，但那个收银员的态度真的很不耐烦，加上书市里太多的购物陷阱，不要的书还要大老远放回去，书卷的购买也被限制在特定柜台（我这吝啬鬼坚持另行排队购买），连结账也让人很累。 去之前脸书有人大肆批评书市的种种不是，其实“人”才是关键。

Post-Watching-The-Fault-In-Our-Star Syndrome Okay? Okay. is okay, but I will think of something greater than this.. XD

由 台湾导演郑芬芬 所执导， 彭于晏 、 陈意涵 和 陈妍希 主演。此片为 台北市文化局 赞助，结合 2009年台北听障奥运 的题材。 令我惊喜的是电影配乐作曲其中有黄韵玲这位“音乐精灵”。电影里的音乐似乎把角色演活了，情绪表达得丝丝入扣，叫人深深陷入电影氛围里，不能自拔。随着剧情中的比赛过程而紧张，剧中人物的失意而难过，为他们感同身受，热泪盈眶。 剧情大纲： 秧秧（ 陈意涵 饰）常在选手训练泳池旁为参加 听障奥运 的姊姊小朋（ 陈妍希 饰）加油，一心想成就姊姊的梦想。天阔（ 彭于晏 饰）某天替听障游泳队员送便当，巧见秧秧和小朋用 手语 对话，上前用手语攀谈，且对秧秧一见触情。随后秧秧摔车，天阔随即载她去医院，甚至跟她要了 MSN 的帐号。 家里开烧腊店的天阔为了制造两人邂逅的机会，总是特地留一个便当给秧秧，甚至自燉煲汤加料和制作爱心便当给秧秧。秧秧感动之余，仍是坚持手头充裕之后一并还清。秧秧的打工是雕像艺术的街头艺人，天阔等到秧秧工作结束后，一同前去 宁夏夜市 吃饭，两人却因付帐时的沟通误会而发生口角。小朋独自待在公寓，楼上失火而使得睡着的小朋喉咙呛伤送医住院，亦造成失去参加听奥的资格。秧秧对此事十分自责与内疚，也因为要照顾小朋，遂决定断绝跟天阔的连络。 天阔想要挽回对秧秧的情感，想尽办法让秧秧开心，送她玻璃 水鸟 的存钱筒，甚至是扮成树木在秧秧家门口等候，但秧秧却不领情。小朋被取消资格而喝酒晚归，引起秧秧的愧疚。小朋向秧秧表明不应该再依附她的梦想，应该要有自己的人生，找寻属于自己的梦想，姊妹俩经过手语沟通后相拥而泣。最后秧秧悄悄地在烧腊店留下还清的便当钱，天阔也询问父母能否接受他与聋人交往，准许之下，天阔随即前去向秧秧表白心意。 天阔在游泳池，背对着听不见的秧秧自我排演对话，邀她来家里打工。隔日，天阔带着秧秧见父母，父母俩也用事先准备好的纸板写上字句与秧秧沟通。正询问秧秧是否有愿意嫁给天阔的意愿时，秧秧突然开口说出“我愿意”。众人震惊之余，才晓得秧秧并不是听障，而秧秧当初也误以为天阔听不见，于是两人先前谈了一段听不见的恋爱。 其实一开始我还以为秧秧是聋人，她不愿接受天阔是因为天阔是听人。最后剧情却出乎意料之外，让人高兴之余，不免疼惜听障朋友，因他们需要比听人更努力地让世人看见他们自身的价值。而身为聋人的家属，秧秧一开始就不放心让身...

I am the kind of person that will keep the promise until it is done. So someone asked that whether we should go out for yamca today. I asked for the time. She said need to wait for another person to comfirm. So I said I will contact the person. But no reply yet. Later when she replied, I told A who suggested this meeting at the first place that B said B will call when she is back. Ok, no response again. So at a very late time later, B called and told me that A said she had something on suddenly so may be tomorrow. So, let's say I wait for the whole day for a 'nothing' and I don't think I can wait for a 'nothing' tomorrow. Thanks but no thanks.

I once read about this in an article of a Japanese author. She said that when we grow order, for someone that you have not contact in daily basis, you should not invite that person to your funeral. Oww gosh, I have NO ONE to invite to my funeral indeed, except my colleagues and my pupils. Most of all, who get to have a say during his or her own funeral? He or she is dead, no??

从来没有如此质疑自己的做人状况，人家连路过都不邀约，想必真的是颗闷蛋吧。 竟，如此郁闷，如此忧愁，却也写不出任何旷世杰作。 搞艺术创作，还是需要天分。

鸟尽，弓藏。 他想，她是否知道了些什么？ 去年，心情低落的她，几乎每日来电，相约出门，消磨让她窒息的独处时间。 每每电话一响，他立刻着装准备，候着等她来，按捺自己雀跃的心，装着淡定，平和地扮演识大体，解人意的好友知己角色。 不过一个与同事们出游的旅程，或是过后同事们例行聚餐，或是老朋友的聚会，他不解，她与他有太多相同的圈子，不知哪一次的相处漏了馅。 他发现她几天没来电话了，他打过去，她说在忙，他连忙盖了。过后，几周，慢慢，几月。 或是，她心情，不蓝。而他，终于，无立足之地。

我化身一颗豆，守护你的平安，那默默不留痕迹的唠叨，附身在小图短词里。

回首教书生涯这六年，只有一年能教华文。重拾部落格，怕连输入中文字都显陌生，习之，惜之。 而后，或许常无病呻吟吧。

剧情简介 天水围位于香港新界元朗区，原是一条小围村，1980年代末被港英政府发展成为以住宅为主的新市镇，但今天它的30万居民多为底层劳工（其中有诸多新移民及大陆新娘）。由于天水围发生过多起震惊港媒的伦常惨案，该地被视作“悲情市镇”，可是其中多数居民平日其实过着与其他港人并无差异的生活，相依为命的贵（鲍起静）与张家安（梁进龙）母子便是如此。 年纪轻轻便守寡的贵14岁出来做工，先后供两个弟弟念完大学，如今他们做成富贵人，她依旧是超市女工一名，但是她并不觉上天待她刻薄，每日生活都很乐观。张家安是乖乖仔，会考完毕没找暑期工做的他多数时候会呆在家里睡觉或看电视，外出见朋友、参加活动的时间非常有限。母子一起坐下吃晚饭聊天时，说的也是该买哪家报纸一类再平常不过的话。 与他们住在同一栋楼里的阿婆梁欢（陈丽云）是新搬来的住户，她每日过着郁郁寡欢、斤斤计较的孤独生活。凭着曾在市区卖过果蔬的经验，她在贵工作的超市找到份工。起初，她与贵不过是见面点头之交，且神情相当冷漠，但慢慢地，贵的慷慨与无私融化了她心中的冰山。而贵在了解到她的心结后，给了她更多温暖，两人渐渐亲如母女。 日子一天天过，张家安亦从母亲身上、几件平常事中了解到生活的多面，舅舅们并没在心理上疏远他们母子，每人都有自己的生活要过。他做好了若是会考成绩不理想，便出来做事的准备... I watch this movie because of Pau Hee Ching, she is the elder sister of the Oscar winning photographer of Crouching Tiger Hidden Dragon. Their father who is also an actor, Pau Fong. She won the Best Actress Award this year in the Hong Kong some sorts of Oscar... I like her acting even before she won anything... Ok, I'm out of my line. This is a really touching movie for me. No action, no climax, not even overwhelm drama scen...

We had done our part, and yet the dog barked all the way long... Without reasonable reasons... Saying we haven't do our part... Is that fair? Let the Heaven judge you.

材料: 1杯温水、2大勺植物油、2又1/8杯白面包粉、1小勺盐、2大勺糖、2小勺泡打粉、1小勺干酵母 做法: 1、面包机内, 依次放入. 2、面团和好后, 静置, 发至2倍大取出. 3、轻放面板上, 擀开，分4份, 每份再切成8小份，1小份上面抹水, 取另一小份放其上, 用筷子压一条印. 4、下油锅炸至金黄色, 捞出沥干油.

This whole 2008 I had been done plenty of reflection, as in teachers' training course, everything we must reflect back to ourselves. So, let's make a review of my course. This whole year, I discovered myself as a person full of possibilities, I kept outdo myself, from learning swimming in a dirty muddy river mouth, hill hiking, walked in a dark creepy woods (of course with the help of my kind and thoughtful friends, I even do not get hurt or a single wound, they are my best 'eyes' and 'bodyguards'!) I even learn the smartest way to study, it's to know your own abilities, don't force yourself towards the edge limits, I mean in studies... As I don't want to end up in Tanjung Rambutan or even Tampoi or elsewhere similar... And I earned friendship... Thanks to all who help me through this year... I was once very afraid and set limits to myself, but because of all of you, I'd got through. Thanks! Especially to my fellow classmates! PCKH rocks forever!...

They said it's a brain-washed camp, but I found it just stated the government's position, even the Constitution. It judged the position of non-Malays in its own way. You might not agree with it, but still, you must respect it... I enjoyed it another way. i enjoyed 5 meals (even 6) per day. I enjoyed ice-breaking activities and even the closing ceremony. I even enjoyed how they managed the module of our courses, made it not obvious to strike the core purpose - to trust and support your own country without second thought. It's killing me in terms of not letting me sleep enough, other than that, it's the best camp I ever had for this year after BIG and BSMM camp that made me starved till near-death.... We are proud to be Malaysians! I hope everyone will, and our children will too!

Exam's just around the corner, and I'm back to old dilemma again, I don't want to study!! But still, I will study, only I have to conquer my devil in my heart first... haha... My D-day, 3-5 November.

Holiday... this has been on my mind since the first week of my Praktikum (training in teaching). I started off on 30 June. Everyday since was a nightmare. Not enough sleep everyday. Writing 'creative' and 'innovative' daily lesson plan everyday... (I could not make it most of the time for that 'creative' part...) Doing and making ABM (for teaching aids actually, from traditional flash card to modern powerpoint and voice recording...) These activities had became my life since that day. I could not wait for holiday since then too... haha... Luckily, I'd made it through for 7 weeks, now the remaining 5 weeks are not a bright future though, every week then there will be lecturer or my mentor in school coming to my class observing me teaching... T_T I want to graduate the sooner the greater!!

After four months in college, I started to appreaciate that time flies. If not, I can't figure out how I survived through these days. Haha. Kind of weak for me to endure those kind of phisical activity, so I always hope for rain during the PE session and Co-curricular activities... Not a good student, huh?? Hope I won't meet such in future... Anyway, I'm glad that I never give up, and lucky to have supportive classmates that watched each other backs. Hope we stay on this spirit! Next semester, we will keep it up!

OK, B.I.G. was my nightmare, but once I’d been, surprisingly, I enjoy it! B.I.G. stands for Bina Insan Guru, some sort of outbound camp, used to be very dangerous and ‘Survivor’ type for those my seniors, but they modified it, ‘cause ‘something’ happened. Now, no more flying fox, no more sitting in the middle of the jungle in the midnight with only some ‘sulfur’ surrounding you. First day, we were sent to the camp site by BUS (I thought we need to walk) to Tg. Sedili, somewhere near Kota Tinggi, Johor. Then, we set up our camp. The funniest part was one lecturer asked us to nail our camp, another said don’t. Later, we didn’t nail our camp, the lecturer who said ‘must’ came around, then scolded us. So, life in college, being scolded and ‘Smile’. Plus, every meal since we arrived at the campsite was cooked by everyone of us, in turns. But three groups of Majoring Mandarin plus one group of Majoring English had good cooks among us! The 4 days 3 nights there, I ate the best meal ever sinc...

No tv... No online for four days more... (now only can access... super slow though) No food... (very limited by time, or I should say control by the sun?) No casual wear (especially jeans... in all kinds! also no jeans when you are out of campus) Everyday class 7.30 to 4.30pm, two days till 7pm. Everyday homework, assignments, tests... Bina Insan Guru camp is just around the corner... Oh... Holiday! I'm looking forward to enjoy you! PS: no radio for me also... like living in ancient caves... no news to read even major press...

First week, orientation week for the new batch of trainee teachers. Full schedule, woke up early morning to do exercise... rush from hostel to every venue... Lectures... Talks... non-stop. Then, nightmares began after orientation week. As for orientation week, each meal provided, including refreshment after the morning and afternoon talks. But after orientation week, the kafe closes at 7pm every weekday, weekend, at 4pm. So, where is my dinner then?? First day, we didn't know. So, rushed to the kafe to find out that the door was closed. Ok, we walked 10 minutes to the main gate, handed out our temporary passes, only we walked outside the school to eat at mamak stall for dinner. From that day on, dinner = walk 10 minutes to front gate, and then walk a distance more to eat at mamak stall, then walk back again to the hostel. Later only we found out that the kafe in other blocks are up doing business, only the kafe in our block close early. So, what to do, walk to get dinner or eat mag...